It's Over

Disclaimer: This one's overly full of emotions. I am was your perfect drama queen. Sorry for the lame pain within this piece of shizz. *wink* I just know this is so timely.

Bright eyes,
Wide lies.
The truth I should forget,
As my mind goes on a reset.

Catch a pain, fake a grin,
Feel the poison setting in.
Wanna rip you with my claw,
But baby, you're a no show.

Tell it to me straight,
Say it to my face.
Get tired of your pretense,
My overhauled head's too dense.

I've pulled out a trick for you to see,
But you didn't even bothered to run after me.
I saw you unsure of it,
I became too sick to bits.

I've laid all my cards on the table,
Put out my heart, threw it on a gamble.
You just like the chase,
There's my heart gone into waste.

I felt like I was buried deep,
For that I just cried myself to sleep.
You know now it just doesn't matter,
Because I say now, "It's over."

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What I Want and What I Really Need

After a few days of trying to understand what's happening, I've had a mind constipation, I can't seem to digest everything into my mind yet, I am feeling better today. I usually over think things through which isn't healthy for me because I just tend to see even the slightest hint of negativity.

I have watched a TV show last night, for those who might know it, the 700 Club Asia, which had let me look into the brighter side of things. A guest there broke up with her boyfriend and after almost two years, they've got back in each other's arms. What she had said made a huge impact to me. This is where my brain to mouth malfunction had brought me: "We have plans for ourselves, but the Lord's plan is better. We should surrender our concerns to Him, for we know that He will NEVER forsake us. We should let Him handle what's bothering us because His plans NEVER fail. He knows what our hearts desire even without words uttered by our lips. His answer to our prayers are only YES, NO or WAIT. But whatever his answer may be, it really indeed is the best for us."

So I'll stop worrying and I'll put an end in trying to do everything to grasp what I want US to be. I am lifting it all up to Him and wherever it may lead me, I'd gladly accept.

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Burn

"What you said when you left just left me cold and out of breath. Guess I let you get the best of me."

I'm fine, tired, asphyxiated. So it took me a couple of days to process things up and the good news is... I can't still freakin' digest everything.

I'm getting better when it comes to throwing rants, don't I? Sorry for two consecutive lame entries. I'll be back for real posts when I finally feel okay.

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Feeling Heavy

Hi everyone! I'm feeling a bit heavy right now. My boyfriend and I just had a time off from everything due to some things that are not worth elaborating. *sobs* Praying that we can still work this out. So.. there.

Well anyway, I'm thinking of holding a giveaway. What do you guys think?

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