Model for a Day!

I've been AWOL for a couple of days and I admit that I have a line-up of entries to post, but I was too lazy to do that. Should I blame the holiday season and the Christmas weight I gained? ;) Which brings me to my lack of existence that I haven't greeted you. Boo!

Merry Christmas, everyone!!

Photo from: fanpop.com

Now back to regular programming. This is a post long overdue. Anyway, Every girl dreams of being a model. I, for once, wanted to be a runway model. Yes, runway model because aside from the fact that I am not photogenic, I am naturally maarte maglakad. That's why I claim that I can't be an ad / fashion model.

Thanks to my girl bestfriends, I was tagged along to try it! We all came from the south, Cavite to be exact, and we did our shoot in La Mesa EcoPark in Quezon City. Commuting was part of the fun. We were all loud and noisy on our way there. Sorry, other MRT passengers! We just enjoyed being together again! Enough with the nitty gritty blabber. Here are some of our photos.

Krizhielle

We arrived at roughly two or three in the afternoon and she moves veeeeryy slow to the point that her pictures were taken at sundown.

Leslie

This girl looks beautiful at any angle, believe me.

Kimberly

The most classy of us all, I think. She did her make-up and mine.

Isabel

Ohh, that's me. LOL. It was kind of awkward to do poses since it was my first time to do a shoot.

Leslie, Kimberly & Me

Krizh wasn't here because at the rate things went, the three of us were done with our second outfit shoots and Krizh wasn't finished prepping up yet. I told you she moves very slow, eh.

The pictures were captured by our friend, MJ. For a beginner, which he claims he is, I can say he's pretty much great! Fact: he looks like Sid Lucero! He accepts commercial, fashion, portrait, cosplay, still life and food photoshoots. You can view his other works HERE.

Well, who doesn't want to be a model, right? With all the glitz, make-up, dressing up and accessories, a kikay girl could definitely not ask for more! :)

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Escape

Note: For the times that my emotional weakness was squeezed into the surface, here's the *insert adjective* outcome.

ESCAPE

How many days more will my heart be sore?

Because I want to be happy just as before.

I pray for this heart that has been torn apart,

To heal so that from scratch, again I can start.

All details of you, I don't want to remember,

Because week after week, I'm still sober.

Eyes are tired from weeping all night,

The walls of my room, of me they've been at sight.

My pillows wet, there my tears have set

The thing about pain, they are to be felt.

From here I try to stop and walk away,

But memories, they haunt me though I've kept them at bay.

To the Lord, I cry deeply for His rescue,

I took a step forward but still blue.

I swear myself this time this will be the end.

So my strength, all arms, I'll extend.

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Back to Nursing

Hi, again! So I just got back from the hospital. I submitted a letter of intent in the Nursing Service Office. I've worked for five months there and after my contract, I decided to find another job. I was a junior staff nurse and that meant we worked with no compensation. Well not really, because we were paid if we're going to be relievers and free charges when confined or rushed in the emergency room. I shouldn't have mentioned that, should I?

After being admitted last August (some of you already know that), I was hired in Convergys Alabang as a CSA. On my first training day, my allergies decided to hit on me once again so I was not able to attend. By the time my parents and I arrived at the hospital, my periorbital edema's very severe and my allergologist to finish my 7-month treatment. 

I don't know if the turning out of events sides on me, but I'm seeing it as God's way of leading me into the path where I want best. 

I'm saying hi to my nursing career again! :)

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Worry No More

Problems are definitely a part of our lives. We cannot get it out of the equation. It's life constant. Have you heard or met somebody not having one? I doubt. We all have it. Family problems, something related to work, emotional problems, etc. They're too many to enumerate. I've had my fair share of everything too, and it was not easy. It wouldn't be easy.

Sometimes, facing them requires a lot of effort, what more if we try to surpass them, right? So here are some ways that I assume might help, in no particular order. *wink*

1. Acknowledge the situation you're facing.

•  Whatever you are going through, acknowledge that you are really going through it. It's the first step to acceptance.

2. Take action.

• Stop sulking in bed. Get your ass working. Nothing's going to happen if you're just going to mourn over the problem.

3. Cry it out.

• Yes, you may bury yourself in bed and wet your pillows for a couple of days but after that, promise yourself that you are not going to be like this everyday. Again, refer to advice number 2.

4. Smile.

• Smiling changes everything. Start your day by smiling and tell yourself that everything's going to be fine. Believe me, it works.

5. Pray. A lot.

• I am the type of person who vents out my problem to God. If there's someone whom I can talk to about anything, I know it's Him. He will give us what's best for us, not what we think is the best for us and He will listen, regardless of who we are or what we have done wrong throughout our lives.

6. Surround yourself with positive people.

• Optimistic people can bring the bright side out of a negative situation. They can turn the bad upside down. You're just going to be tripping over the same thing if you're with the people who don't see the good in the bad, the bright point in the dark.

7. Walk without looking back so you won't remember why you're running away in the first place.

• Throwing yourself in that situation just brings all the pain and anxiety back. Just keep on walking. Eyes straight ahead. Focus on the intervention you are making.

8. Divert your attention.

• It's normal to think about it. Your mind will totally recall all the gory details. But I am telling you, you don't have to entertain the thoughts. Don't run after thoughts because you can get them off your mind. Remember: it is the mind that controls everything. You want something out of your mind, instruct your brain to do so. Again, refer to advice number 2.

9. Make a decision.

• You should make a decision and stand firmly with it. Nothing can be solved if you won't make up your mind. Make a decision and tell yourself, "No U-turns now."

And when all is said and done, here's what I do in times like this: I read a lot. I installed a lot of e-books in my Ipod touch and I read everytime I start feeling down. You know, just to divert attention. And I pray when it starts to hit me again. God surely does know what we need. He never breaks a promise so I am very certain that this too, shall pass.

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Hospital Getaway

A quick post: I'm so sorry for my inactivity. I was hospitalized for a few days and I was nearly admitted to the intensive care unit. I will post the whole story when I get well. *wink*

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It's Over

Disclaimer: This one's overly full of emotions. I am was your perfect drama queen. Sorry for the lame pain within this piece of shizz. *wink* I just know this is so timely.

Bright eyes,
Wide lies.
The truth I should forget,
As my mind goes on a reset.

Catch a pain, fake a grin,
Feel the poison setting in.
Wanna rip you with my claw,
But baby, you're a no show.

Tell it to me straight,
Say it to my face.
Get tired of your pretense,
My overhauled head's too dense.

I've pulled out a trick for you to see,
But you didn't even bothered to run after me.
I saw you unsure of it,
I became too sick to bits.

I've laid all my cards on the table,
Put out my heart, threw it on a gamble.
You just like the chase,
There's my heart gone into waste.

I felt like I was buried deep,
For that I just cried myself to sleep.
You know now it just doesn't matter,
Because I say now, "It's over."

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Forever 21

Two more sleeps and here comes birthday. I don't even feel that I'm twenty two. I don't know but I'm really not ecstatic about it. Maybe because of the "calling it off" thingy. When I was putting this post mentally, I've got a lot to say and now that my fingers are doing the talking, my thoughts have gone elsewhere. BLAH.

WISHLIST:

• ELF eye shadow palette in WARM
• Marionnaud flat top brush
• NYX round lipsticks / NYX matte lipsticks
• Wedge shoes
• Iphone 4s HAHAHA ;)
• A small cork board for my room
• Colorful pens or whatever's useful for writing
• A personal wish hoping to be granted by our Lord
• An e-mail reply from a couple of organizations I want to volunteer in

I can't think of anything else as of the moment. I should have done this earlier so I can add more when something pops in my head. Regrets, regrets. Well, August 13, I might as well be excited about you. HAPPY BIRTHDAY to me! :)

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What I Want and What I Really Need

After a few days of trying to understand what's happening, I've had a mind constipation, I can't seem to digest everything into my mind yet, I am feeling better today. I usually over think things through which isn't healthy for me because I just tend to see even the slightest hint of negativity.

I have watched a TV show last night, for those who might know it, the 700 Club Asia, which had let me look into the brighter side of things. A guest there broke up with her boyfriend and after almost two years, they've got back in each other's arms. What she had said made a huge impact to me. This is where my brain to mouth malfunction had brought me: "We have plans for ourselves, but the Lord's plan is better. We should surrender our concerns to Him, for we know that He will NEVER forsake us. We should let Him handle what's bothering us because His plans NEVER fail. He knows what our hearts desire even without words uttered by our lips. His answer to our prayers are only YES, NO or WAIT. But whatever his answer may be, it really indeed is the best for us."

So I'll stop worrying and I'll put an end in trying to do everything to grasp what I want US to be. I am lifting it all up to Him and wherever it may lead me, I'd gladly accept.

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Burn

"What you said when you left just left me cold and out of breath. Guess I let you get the best of me."

I'm fine, tired, asphyxiated. So it took me a couple of days to process things up and the good news is... I can't still freakin' digest everything.

I'm getting better when it comes to throwing rants, don't I? Sorry for two consecutive lame entries. I'll be back for real posts when I finally feel okay.

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Feeling Heavy

Hi everyone! I'm feeling a bit heavy right now. My boyfriend and I just had a time off from everything due to some things that are not worth elaborating. *sobs* Praying that we can still work this out. So.. there.

Well anyway, I'm thinking of holding a giveaway. What do you guys think?

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One Shade of Red

Excuse me for my randomness. I always admire the guts of women who can sport red lipsticks. Yes, Anne Curtis! I envy them, I look darker when I wear red lippies. Sorry, but the following are my attempts to look effortless in the red shade. You have been warned. :)

Pardon for the unclear pictures, I just used my camera phone.

Lipstick used: Pop Shop in Princess Heart

Here's a swatch:

(with flash)

(without flash)

The color isn't too strong nor light, just the right shade of red. Plus it has a long staying power, even if you drink or eat, it doesn't go off easily.

Personally, I think red puckers match a nude or bare face because it draws too much attention to your canvass. Unless you want to look like flared or something, then go on put on whatever you want to your face. What are your favorite lipstick shades? Do you always wear red ones? Tell me more about it! :) 

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